Summer Dreams

Summer Dreams

Staring out the window lost in my thoughts, I close my eyes and mind to the world around me. I feel myself drifting back to a familiar place where I feel anxious, happy, sad, love, alive and a deep burning lust, a lust for new things, a new life far away from everything routine. The life that he consumed, the life that he opened the doors too, the life he took with him when he left.

Feeling the tears willing their way up, I open my eyes and find myself in his arms we are yet again having that same conversation we’ve had many times before. I was the dreamer, the romantic, the one that believed if you follow your heart and dreams they will come true. He was the logic behind my madness, a pillar of strength with a heart so big and full of love.  He thought he had that hid well. But I knew him better than he believed, every chance I got I’d lose myself in him, the many of days I stood there watching him from the kitchen, and the sleepless nights after we made love, I’d lay next to him listening to his steady breathing as I watched him sleep.

I knew he had obligations to fulfill back home, he had to finish his degree, he had to make his family proud. I supported him in every way a woman in love possibly could, he’d talk I’d listen contentedly, he’d have doubts and worries and I’d comfort and assure him. I knew it’s what he had to do regardless of the love we had, him returning home wasn’t up for discussion…. it was a must.

He reaches up and pushes a strand of my hair away from my tear-stained cheek and tells me to stop crying, wrapping his arms around me he pulls me to him as he kisses me. We lie there in the comfort of each others arms, letting everything around us to just disappear. Slowly we drift off to sleep as the rain pounds on the windows and my heart pounds in my chest.

A phone rings, a dog barks and my heart aches as I am pulled out of my dream, back to reality…

to be continued….

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Comments

  1. Wonderful. I have their CD somewhere. I think I'll go dig it out for some more!_ _http://holesinmysoles.blogspot.com/2011/08/youtube-tuesday-aug-23rd-oliver.html

  2. Corinne Rodrigues says:

    This was so full of longing and emotion, Deb. Wishing you the best kind of love always…
    My recent post The Battle Hymn of The Atheists!

    • Corinne, thanks for reading and leaving your kind words :)
      They say it's better to be loved, than never loved at all… I think I'd rather had never tasted it… only makes the longing hurt more

      thanks again
      deb

  3. Corinne Rodrigues says:

    This was so full of longing and emotion, Deb. Wishing you the best kind of love always…
    My recent post The Battle Hymn of The Atheists!

    • Corinne, thanks for reading and leaving your kind words :)
      They say it's better to be loved, than never loved at all… I think I'd rather had never tasted it… only makes the longing hurt more

      thanks again
      deb

  4. Sending you healing wishes.
    I'll return to read the rest…
    Meanwhile, you take care.

    ~ Hugs

  5. Great story! Memories have a powerful effect on us. :)

  6. Sending you healing wishes.
    I'll return to read the rest…
    Meanwhile, you take care.

    ~ Hugs

  7. Great story! Memories have a powerful effect on us. :)

  8. David Smith says:

    Beautiful and vivid…your words transported me to another place. Memories are often all we have and they can be so powerful while eternally lasting. Hope your dream man returns soon!! :)

    • David, thank you for coming by and leaving your thoughts… Its nice sometimes to be transported to another place isn't it? :) Memories can be powerful, they are only memories now and I am glad I am at a point where I can talk about the memories without the overpowering effect they used to have… Guess that's the healing process right?

      Thank you again :)
      Deb

  9. David Smith says:

    Beautiful and vivid…your words transported me to another place. Memories are often all we have and they can be so powerful while eternally lasting. Hope your dream man returns soon!! :)

    • David, thank you for coming by and leaving your thoughts… Its nice sometimes to be transported to another place isn't it? :) Memories can be powerful, they are only memories now and I am glad I am at a point where I can talk about the memories without the overpowering effect they used to have… Guess that's the healing process right?

      Thank you again :)
      Deb

  10. Oh, beautifully sad.

  11. Oh, beautifully sad.

  12. deleted6395593 says:

    Adriene, thank you for your kind words and support. It's hard and it's going to take a lot of getting used too.
    I am doing the best that I can with the "to much time on my hands" I assume it will get easier.

    Thanks again :)
    oxox <3
    Deb