I really haven’t logged in much on Facebook (from a pc) in a while. I have done most of it from my cell phone and we all know how little the screen on cells are. Not only have I been dealing with the stuff of my earlier post, but I have a few other things on my plate now.
Have you ever been to a buffet style restaurant and seen someone walk by you with their plates so piled high with food, you wonder to yourself how is that person going to be able to eat all that food? We’ll that plate you see piled high is my plate now… No I am not sitting here with a plate full of food… It’s just how I feel emotionally.
I guess I will get to the point of this post. “Assuming and Assumptions” so when you assume something does it make an ass out of you and me?
I made a New Year’s Resolution to reconnect with my family and I’ve pretty much stuck to it and have followed through, *pats self on back* part of this was also connecting with them on Facebook which makes sense right? I mean being a distance apart its easier to talk share etc. on FB. I found myself trying every game FB had to offer to connect with certain people, I found myself spending 3- 4 hours daily in the mornings, FB gaming, commenting (back and forth) to a point where I looked up one day and said ok this is way overwhelming. I didn’t log daily to FB before and I most certainly wasn’t spending all this time with games on FB, why do/should I have to continue this? So I stopped playing the games, and started logging like a normal person (once or twice a day) liking and making my normal little comments here and there.
Well that’s when all hell broke loose because I wasn’t logging ASAP when I woke up and because I didn’t DAILY put good morning …. how are you … what you doing …. etc… etc… on walls. It started off with little comments like “some people are fake, why do people make promises than don’t keep them, I tried its time to give up, and other childish comments. The exact things that I didn’t want nor needed in my life, partly the reason way I’ve put a distance.
I ignored the comments and kept up with my daily FB time and doings such as “liking a picture” “random” comments here and their etc. I didn’t feel I had to stop daily and have a FULL BLOWN conversation. But apparently I was wrong, apparently because I continued being “ME” I was wrong…. Apparently because I didn’t spend 4 hours a day on FB I didn’t care and then it led to a private message saying things like ” I saw you liked my fotos but you didnt’ leave me a comment, I ignored the first couple of messages hoping that if I ignored it then it would stop. No! How could I think that would happen? I started seeing more comments and then a phone call which was during dinner time, to which I didn’t answer and suggested the call take place in the mornings after our children were at school. I waited for the call and it didn’t come, then guess what “again dinner time phone rang” sorry if you didn’t get the point of my text saying “call in the mornings when our children were at school” that’s your problem NOT mine )))))
Well I feel like I am dragging this out, so making a long story short. I eventually got another private message saying ok, I tried to talk to you get close with you etc… but seems like you don’t want me around, so should I just leave, forget about it and give up. Even one saying “so what is your problem?” HA!! I didn’t know I had a problem and I wasn’t aware I had to EXPLAIN myself to anyone!! I didn’t respond only thought to myself “seriously? really ? did you get this impression from my not wanting to spend 4 hours on FB daily, or maybe it was because I wasn’t sending you a silly little heart or making a comment on EVERY post you made, or maybe because I commented on my friends post and not yours? REALLY??? SERIOUSLY??? Are we adults or are we back in High School? Cause the last time I remembered I was a grown woman with a family and didn’t realize that because I wasn’t doing all the above mentioned things that it meant I didn’t care, or that I didn’t want you around etc etc….
I have dealt with “MY OWN” issues and problems, so why should I take on more? I mean why the hell do I want to add MORE to my already full plate knowing damn well I can’t digest what I already have?
I decided today to log onto FB from my laptop, and I noticed that I no longer have a sister and as I am scrolling down her daughter has taken me off as her aunt. Hey that’s ok with me but was it done because it was “assumed” that I didn’t want you around because I couldn’t be bothered with entertaining the “what’s your problem message? ” or the many other not necessary comments made over the past month? So I ask Does “Assuming” make an “ass” out of YOU and ME ??